A Matter of Days - Softcover

Kizer, Amber

Softcover

ISBN 10: 0385739745 ISBN 13: 9780385739740

Verlag: Random House Children's Books, 2016

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“Gripping and poignant, A Matter of Days takes readers on a heart-stopping journey of love and survival.“ — New York Times bestselling author Carrie Jones
 
Their new reality begins in just a matter of days.
 
On Day 56 of the Blustar Pandemic, sixteen-year-old Nadia’s mother dies, leaving Nadia to fend for herself and her younger brother, Rabbit. Both have been immunized against the virus, but they can’t be protected from what comes next. Their father taught them to “be the cockroach”—to adapt to and survive whatever comes their way. And that’s their mission.
 
Facing a lawless world of destruction and deprivation, Nadia and Rabbit drive from Seattle to their grandfather’s compound in West Virginia. The illness, fatigue, and hunger they endure along the way will all be worth it once they reach the compound.
 
Unless no one is waiting for them . . .

 
“Fans of Rick Yancey’s The 5th Wave, S. D. Crockett’s After the Snow, or Cormac McCarthy’s adult novel The Road will find this a satisfying read.” —SLJ
 
“An exciting apocalyptic road trip.” —Publishers Weekly

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AMBER KIZER is also the author of the popular Meridian trilogy. Visit her at amberkizer.com.

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DAY 56
I waited a few swallows, a couple of deep breaths, before standing and tugging the quilt, with its blue-and-white wedding ring pattern, up and over Mom's face. Quiet. Peace. Finally. Exhaustion frayed my edges, fringed my cogent mind until the world hazed a gray blue. Mom's death was a type of ending, sure, but the beginning of so much more. Are we ready?
I tucked the corners of the quilt down under the mattress, into the crevice between the headboard and pillows. Smoothed out the wrinkles, covered up the filth, the days of dying cleaned up with the bright rings of magical promises my parents made to each other twenty years ago.
The bulge in the middle of the bed didn't resemble a human being anymore, let alone the woman who'd loved us our whole lives. Why didn't she listen when it mattered? The juncos, chickadees, and nuthatches chattered like stock traders outside. Or maybe, as the world fell more silent with each death, the birds simply seemed louder, more insistent.
The day was what Washingtonians called partly sunny rather than partly cloudy, and only about fifty degrees, but I'd kept the windows open. The chilled breeze blew in the stench of rotting meat and garbage. This world was separated only by a matter of degrees of gross. I almost didn't notice. I remembered moments when the air I breathed was scented with cedar trees, the dank acidic tang of low tide miles away, or elderberry blossoms on the wind. A lifetime ago. Can it really be only eight weeks?
Move, Nadia, don't stop moving. So much to do. Rabbit's footsteps sounded like a herd of elephants pacing upstairs. I imagined he checked the family room one last time for treasures he absolutely had to take with him. He probably lingered over the Xbox 360, gaming maniac that he'd once been. The shooting game, Uncle Bean gave us with a stern lecture to hide it from Mom, but practice aiming, firing, and holding a weapon until we were comfortable with it.
Rabbit clattered down the stairs, dropping something heavy, swearing words he shouldn't know at eleven.
A sigh deflated my legs until all I wanted to do was melt into the floor and let the virus get me, too. Or pills. Or booze. Or blades. Anything to not be left behind. I leaned my back against the side of the bed and scratched my scalp. My fingernails had blood, and other grossness, in the cracks and creases. Will they ever be completely clean again? Will I?
Rabbit's footsteps paused outside the master suite's door. He'd worry at the quiet. Mom's moans and screams became a part of our routine; intense, contorting pain was one of many symptoms of BluStar.
A thin, wavering voice called through the door, "Dad come get Mom?"
If Dad came to get Mom, why in the hell didn't he take us, too? Why do we have to live? "Yep, champ, she's gone," I called back to my little brother, trying not to sound as defeated as I felt.
Get up, Nadia. Be the cockroach, not the orchid. I heard Dad's voice chastise me until I pushed myself off the floor. Leaning down, I kissed Mom's forehead through the quilt. It was almost easy to say goodbye. Those last few days had been so horrific, so painful to watch, that the relief felt too big to fit inside my skin. But I was empty, couldn't even summon up tears. I'd used them all along with fervent prayers and agonizing wishes. Who has energy left to grieve? I have to be strong. Keep it together.
"Are we--um, are you-- When?" Rabbit shouted as he threw a tennis ball against the hallway wall with the steady thrum of a heartbeat. He did it when he was most worried, most anxious. "Not in the house," Mom would yell. "No dog to bring it back," he'd say. "A dog could chase the ball."
I shook my head and did a few jumping jacks to slough off the haze and debilitating paralysis that made me want to sit in one spot until I died too. I had to snap out of it. Rabbit's counting on me. "Soon. Thirty minutes?"
"'Kay." The tennis ball bumped and echoed farther down the hall, back toward the kitchen. The empty, scavenged remains of our kitchen.
I stripped off clothes I'd worn for longer than twenty-four hours, longer than days, or years, or lifetimes. I shuffled into my parents' closet. I riffled through until I found my mom's favorite pair of jeans and the cashmere sweater set, the royal-blue one, never worn. Mom was saving it for when Dad got home from his tour in Afghanistan.
For a split second, I wished I could bury Mom in the National Cemetery next to Dad. I'd done the next best thing: put Dad's dog tags over Mom's heart and covered her in the wedding ring quilt. Granny had made it for my parents' wedding gift. It had covered their bed all my life until Mom shoved it deep into the closet when the uniforms came with casualty news. Now the quilt's memories tied my parents together, as best I could, on this day, in death.
I padded naked into the bathroom and dipped the last clean washcloth in a bucket of rainwater Rabbit collected yesterday. It was cold, but it was clean. My hip bones poked at my skin and I had divots between each rib. I have to eat more. Manic laughter threatened at the thought of eating more energy bars and canned soup.
I scrubbed with a loofah until my skin pinked, reddened angrily, chafed with the contact. I reveled in the sensation, and part of me wondered if that was all I'd feel ever again--pain. Physical, emotional--it was all pain at this point. I brushed my fuzzy teeth until they were slick and shiny. I tried not to cringe at the sight of the kinked frizz of my hair or the glaring sprinkle of freckles across the bridge of my nose.
I slid into Mom's clothes. Two of me would fit in here. I might as well be the hanger. She'd been a couple sizes larger than me to start; I'd lost a size or two over the past few months. I threaded a belt through the loops to keep the jeans up.
I buried my face in her sweater, trying to find the lingering of perfume I grew up associating with Mom, but it still carried that new-clothes smell. Where's her spray? I padded over to Mom's perfume on the vanity, sprayed a little DK Cashmere over my heart, and set the bottle back on the counter. It's lonely.
On impulse, I grabbed a toiletry bag and dumped Mom's makeup and perfume in. I sprinted into the bathroom and dug around in the back of the drawers until I found Dad's cologne and shaving kit, out of sight, but not gone. Maybe they'd come in handy. Something to hold on to.
I left the window open with the curtains rustling. I almost saw Mom and Dad standing together in the drape and movement of the fabric. A large brown moth with a perfect blue stripe sunned in a stray ray on the sill. Mom would know what kind it was. I can't ask her. I can't ask her anything, ever again.
I avoided looking at the bed even one last time before slipping out of the room, my arms full of my parents' daily routines.
I didn't spare my own room more than a glance as I slipped on my newest pair of sneakers. I hadn't slept in there for days, weeks. Homework was still piled on my desk, and there was a nasty mound of dirty clothes in the corner. I wanted to lie down on my bed and never get back up. Too tempting.
I found Rabbit sitting at the kitchen table staring out into the backyard. A Steller's jay imitated a red-tailed hawk and cocked its head as if asking if we'd put out the usual peanut butter. The bird feeders were full for the first time in weeks. We don't have time to feed wildlife. We need the food for us.
"I filled 'em," Rabbit said, before I'd even asked the question, and didn't take his eyes off the jay. Dad loved the birds.
I sighed. "That's nice." I knew I sounded bitchy and distracted, so I tried again, "I mean, I know they'll appreciate it while they can. You're a good kid, Rabbit." I flipped open cabinets, checking, double-checking. We'd jammed everything we could into the Jeep. Everything that was left, that we hadn't used up or had stolen from us.
"I'm...

Details zur Ausgabe

• Verlag: Random House Children's Books
• Erscheinungsdatum: 2016
• Sprache: Englisch
• ISBN 10: 0385739745
• ISBN 13: 9780385739740
• Einband: Taschenbuch
• Anzahl der Seiten: 288
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