Say When: A Novel - Softcover

Berg, Elizabeth

Softcover

ISBN 10: 0743411374 ISBN 13: 9780743411370

Verlag: Washington Square Press, 2004

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From the New York Times bestselling author of Open House and True to Form comes a brilliant novel that charts the days and nights of a family whose normalcy has been shattered by resentment and infidelity.

When is a marriage worth saving and when is it best to let go? When do half-truths turn into full-blown lies? When does betrayal end and passion begin?

Say When is a compelling, complex novel that takes readers into the heart of a modern marriage where companionship and intimacy, and denial and pain, so often collide. "Of course he knew she was seeing someone," begins the story of Frank Griffin, a man who's willing to overlook his wife's infidelity for the sake of keeping his family intact. But when the forty-year-old Ellen requests a divorce on the basis that she has finally found true, romantic love, Griffin must decide whether to fight or flee...or search elsewhere for the kind of life he always dreamed of.

With Elizabeth Berg's trademark blend of rare insight, raw emotion, and hard-won wisdom, Say When is a work of startling revelation that no reader will soon forget.

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Elizabeth Berg is the award-winning author of more than twenty-five books, including the New York Times bestsellers True to Form, Never Change, Open House, The Story of Arthur Truluv, Night of Miracles, and The Confession Club. She lives outside of Chicago. Find out more at Elizabeth-Berg.net.

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Say When

Chapter 1

Of course he knew she was seeing someone. He knew who it was, too. Six months ago, saying she needed a new direction in her life, saying she was tired of feeling helpless around anything mechanical, that she had no idea how to even change a tire, Ellen had taken a course in basic auto mechanics—“Know Your Car,” it was called. She’d come back the first night saying it was amazing, she’d had the admittedly elitist idea that mechanics were illiterate, but this one was so well-spoken, and he’d walked into the classroom carrying a pile of books he’d just bought—hardback! Mostly new fiction, she’d said. But also Balzac, because he’d never read him.

“How do you know?” Griffin had asked.

“Know what?”

“How do you know he’s never read Balzac?”

“Because he told me. I had a question after class and then we just started talking….”

“What was your question?”

She stared at him, a tight smile on her face. Then she said, “My question was about the battery.”

“But what about it?”

She looked down, embarrassed. “I wanted to know how you clean it. Okay?”

“Why didn’t you ask me?”

“Oh, for—”

“No. Why didn’t you ask me? I could have told you.”

“Because,” she said, slowly and deliberately, “it never came up between us. It came up because I am taking a class about cars. And I had a question for the teacher. Jesus, Griffin. What is this?”

“Nothing,” he’d said. “Forget it.”

Griffin didn’t forget it, of course. Week after week, he’d watched Ellen dress for class, each time paying more attention to herself: fresh eyeliner just before she left one week, a more deliberate hairstyle the next, a lingering scent of perfume in the bedroom the night she’d gotten ready for the last class—the ridiculously expensive perfume Griffin had given her for her last birthday, for the record. He felt helpless against her drift toward another man, felt as though he were standing around stirring change in his pocket when he should be waging an earth-pawing kind of war. But the truth was that from the time he’d married her ten years ago, he’d been waiting for something like this to happen. She was always just beyond his grasp, in one way or another. He supposed, actually, that her cool reserve was one of the things that attracted him to her.

She couldn’t be serious about this obvious attraction to someone else. She was nearing forty, that was all. He would let her have this, this secret relationship, this thrilling little romance. Let her and Mr. Goodwrench meet for coffee and have moony-eyed discussions about Mary Oliver and Pablo Neruda and Seamus Heaney, all of Ellen’s precious poets. Let her talk until she was finally exhausted by all that “so much depends upon a red wheelbarrow” crap, by all those supposedly deep thoughts written by people who were undoubtedly a bunch of first-class hypocrites. Ellen seemed to think her pale gods spent all of their time sitting at their desks in rapturous torture, scribbling away with quill pens, when in fact they were probably mostly standing around scratching their asses and contemplating the contents of their refrigerators just like everybody else. It might actually be a relief for her to have someone to talk about that stuff with, so she would finally stop trying to make Griffin swoon over it—though lately she’d been pretty good about not asking him to read anything. She wasn’t sleeping with the guy, Griffin was sure of that. She would never do that.

He leaned over her now and looked at her, her hair splayed over half her face. She was not a beautiful woman, but Griffin had never met anyone who appealed to him more. She exuded an earthy sensuality made more attractive by the fact that she didn’t know it. “I love to look at you,” he sometimes told her. “You’re just…perfect.” “Oh, God, Griffin,” she would say. “Stop.”

She moaned slightly in her sleep. Griffin lay his hand on her shoulder, then slid it down her back and onto her palm-sized sacrum. When she was in labor with Zoe, he’d given her a back rub against the awesome waves of pain. When he’d felt her sacrum, he’d thought it was the baby’s head and had yelled, “It’s coming!”

“Ohhhhhhhhh, really?” Ellen had moaned. “Really?”

“Yes, it’s coming,” he’d said, for a good forty-five minutes or more, until the doctor came in and informed him that he was not feeling the baby’s head at all. They’d chuckled together over his erroneous assumption.

Ellen had gotten furious. “This isn’t funny!” she’d said.

The doctor had winked at Griffin. “Pain pretty strong, Ellen?”

He was met with a nearly palpable silence.

“She’s doing really well,” Griffin said, then added proudly, “She hasn’t had any medication!”

“Well, it’s too late for that now, anyway,” the doctor said.

“Why don’t both of you just shut up?” Ellen said, and the doctor had winked again. “She’s in transition,” he’d whispered to Griffin. He patted Ellen’s foot, and left.

Now, eight years later, Ellen seemed to be in another kind of transition. She was preoccupied: bereft-looking when she thought Griffin didn’t see her, guarded when she knew he could. Twice he’d heard her on the phone when he came home, saying hurriedly, “I have to go.” She wouldn’t talk to him, not really, except to fill him in on necessary bits of business about Zoe, about what bills needed to be paid next, about who would take the cat to the vet.

It all made sense now.

Well. You had these times in a marriage, everyone knew that. You just waited them out, that was all. Griffin kissed Ellen’s cheek lightly, then got out of bed to get his robe. It was Sunday. He’d make coffee and hash browns, eggs over easy. Zoe would sleep late, she always did, and Griffin and Ellen would sit at the kitchen table and read the Sunday paper together as usual. Maybe they’d find something on sale and go and buy it. He sat on the bed to put his slippers on.

“Where are you going?” Ellen asked sleepily.

He turned to look at her. “Downstairs.”

She said nothing.

“To make breakfast.”

“Stay here, okay?”

Sex? Griffin thought, and felt his penis leap up a little in anticipation.

He took off his robe and slippers and got back in bed. God, how long had it been? Ellen put her arms around him, her head beneath his chin, and sighed heavily. Oh. Not sex, then.

“You know something’s going on, right?”

He stopped breathing.

“Right?”

He shifted his weight, checked, for some reason, the time. Ten after eight. “What do you mean?”

“Griffin, don’t do this. We have to talk about it.”

He said nothing, waited. She started to say something, then stopped.

“What,” Griffin said.

“Oh, I don’t know how to do this!” She sat up. “Look, I’m…Okay, I’ll just say this: I’m in love with someone. And I…want a divorce. I’m sorry.”

He lay back against his pillow,...

Details zur Ausgabe

• Verlag: Washington Square Press
• Erscheinungsdatum: 2004
• Sprache: Englisch
• ISBN 10: 0743411374
• ISBN 13: 9780743411370
• Einband: Taschenbuch
• Anzahl der Seiten: 287
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