Escaping the Pain - Softcover

Brusse, R. A.

Softcover

ISBN 10: 1449010709 ISBN 13: 9781449010706

Verlag: AuthorHouse, 2009

Inhaltsangabe

Inside this book is poetry that comes directly from my thoughts, feelings and experiences. I hope that bearing my soul, in black and white, will help others realize they're not alone. I found that when I wrote about my thoughts and feelings, I wasn't doing what was in my mind. I hope that my poetry will help others, their friends and family, to better understand what they feel but are to scared to say. I hope to help them find a way to work together and to keep fighting. I do want to warn those who read this book, it is extremely graphic and may "trigger" some. However, remember while you're reading, it's better to write or talk about your feelings than to keep them hidden. You can fight your demons, but you can't do it alone. I have found my way to cope, and it has helped me to survive. This book, in my words, shows my fight and my victory.

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Escaping the Pain

By R.A. Brusse

AuthorHouse

Copyright © 2009 R.A. Brusse
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4490-1070-6

Chapter One

I would like to give a special thanks to two people who have a special place in my heart.

To my sister Jodi, who has always stood by me and loved me unconditionally. She was always willing to listen, even though I usually remained silent. She has supported every dream I've had, including helping me follow through with my dream of writing this book.

To Lisa, who accepts me, all of me, for exactly who I am. From the first day we met, she saw the real me, the person who hides under my mask. She was the one I could lean on when I felt there was nothing more to fight for.

05-25-1993

Questions That Kill

Screaming for the endless torment to stop Running from friends I thought I had Lost in my own shattered dreams Slipping away from the world Ridiculed and threatened every place I go There is no place safe to run to Trying so hard to make my dreams stop Yet wishing that my life was only a dream I am lost, confused Tired in my sleepless nights I lie awake Tears drenching my face Too ashamed to show pain Hidden heart Confused mind Mixed messages all around Split image A person that few know My goal is not to hurt So instead I feel the pain Not trying to be great Only trying to help So many questions that haunt me How can I survive How can I get through The torture

03-16-2009

Appearances

So much has happened Yet silent I stay Nobody has a clue I hide who I am from everyone No one knows what I do No one knows what has all happened No one knows anything about me I appear like I'm fine I sit and joke But when alone I just keep dying Slowly Every drop of strength I have Drips away through my tears Slowly I die from the inside out How much longer can I fight this How much more do I have in me My life slowly slips away And I don't know how to stop it

09-21-1999

What Do I Think

I don't know what I'm thinking anymore Everything is racing so fast I think death I think life I think about my funeral I think about my future I think about being touched and screaming no My body freezing Yet I think about relationships And a future And making love My mind never rests I think work Softball Being alone Being surrounded But yet I never have any answers It's all just jumbled thoughts What's right What's wrong Who are my friends Who are my enemies Do I help Or do I hurt I feel fat - ugly - and stupid How can someone that cares so much Care so little Who am I What do I think

09-24-1999

Different Roles

Sitting in a room full of people Still wondering what friends really are Feeling so out of place Not sure of what mask to wear Should I be the comedian Should I be conservative People say just be me But who am I I've played so many roles That I've lost touch of which role is real I don't feel like I belong But I should This is a person who I truly love Why is it so hard to be me I'm better off by myself With no acts to put on Just being the stupid alcoholic that I am Will I ever find a place in this world Or am I destined to be alone forever My mind still torn between roles

Why Am I Hollow

Sitting alone Feeling only emptiness Nobody wanting me around So many dreams that I have So many people I'm surrounded by But yet only feeling hollow Why

09-26-1999

Why

Incredible day Doing everything I love With people I care for So why do I still feel alone Why am I so different than others All I'm looking for is why Why can I love so much But never be good enough for others to love Why are others so beautiful Yet I stay unattractive Why do I try to be intelligent Yet still feel so stupid Why do I feel so hollow Why do I feel so alone Why can't I find the answers

07-11-2002

Lisa

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Details zur Ausgabe

• Verlag: AuthorHouse
• Erscheinungsdatum: 2009
• Sprache: Englisch
• ISBN 10: 1449010709
• ISBN 13: 9781449010706
• Einband: Taschenbuch
• Anzahl der Seiten: 300
• Kontakt zum Hersteller: Nicht verfügbar
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