“August 22, 2011, is the day my life took a huge turn … Here I am sitting in the medical office. I get a call to come in and see my doctor, and as I sit here, it dawns on me that I am the only one in the waiting room. This can’t be good! I’m also holding in my hand a piece of paper that says my divorce is final, and it is stamped with today’s date. This is quite a day!”
In sharing her story, Carol demonstrates how important it is to be surrounded with love, family, and friendship and how “seeing the rightness” can be just as important in the healing process as any medication.
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" A small town girl, Carol grew up in Central Alberta, Canada, on a farm just west of a small rural community. She is the oldest of three girls. After graduation she moved to Olds with her future husband. They were together for twenty six years and in that time they co-created two marvelous boys and a lot of wonderful memories. Carol had a variety of jobs, but enjoyed her work as a lifeguard & swimming lesson instructor and her work at the daycare the most. She has always loved working with children. This inspired her to get her Bachelor of Education in 1995. She is currently an active teacher in her small town. She was routinely doing her monthly breast exam in July, 2011 when she discovered a lump in her right breast. After going through a mastectomy and chemotherapy, she decided that her body had been through enough and listened to her heart which told her that radiation and drugs were not needed and she should focus on her healing. She enjoys spending time with her boys, going on adventures, writing, reading, cooking, hiking, biking, living in the moment, loving, laughing, learning, drinking tea, meditating, doing Pilates, Facebooking, eating dark chocolate-covered almonds, spending time in her yard and in nature. Currently she is teaching part time so she can spend time on her new adventure of writing. She is passionate about expressing herself in words that inspire and bring hope to others who experience the process of cancer or any other learning experience actually. She believes a positive attitude can create miracles, especially if one looks for the rightness in the every day. Keep a look out for future works. Check out her website at www.smilingsinglemom.ca "
Preface, xvii,
Welcome, xxi,
August - FEAR, 1,
September - GRIEF, 2,
October - DEPRESSION, 10,
November - DESPAIR, 15,
December - POWERLESSNESS, 18,
January - INSECURITY, 22,
February - GUILT, 24,
March - UNWORTHINESS, 26,
April - JEALOUSLY, 29,
May - HATRED, 31,
June - REVENGE, 38,
July - ANGER, 39,
August - DISCOURAGEMENT, 42,
September - BLAME, 45,
October - WORRY, 47,
November - DOUBT, 50,
December - DISAPPOINTMENT, 54,
January - OVERWELMENT, 57,
February - FRUSTRATION, 59,
March - IRRITATION, 61,
April - IMPATIENCE, 63,
May - PESSIMISM, 66,
June - BOREDOM, 68,
July - CONTENTMENT, 70,
August - HOPEFULNESS, 72,
September - ACCEPTANCE, 77,
October - OPTIMISM, 80,
November - POSITIVE EXPECTATION, 84,
December - BELIEF, 88,
January - ENTHUSIASM, 91,
February - EAGERNESS, 94,
March - HAPPINESS, 97,
April - PASSION, 99,
May - JOY, 102,
June - EASE, 105,
July - APPRECIATION, 108,
August - EMPOWERMENT, 111,
September - FREEDOM, 114,
October - INSPIRATION, 118,
November - AWE, 120,
December - LOVE, 122,
Thanks for Coming, 125,
For Your Thoughts, 127,
Acknowledgements, 129,
How To Find Me, 133,
Recommended Reading Resources, 135,
About Carol, 137,
About Janice, 139,
August - FEAR
August was my month of fear. Fear of what had happened in my past and of the mistakes that I had made in my marriage. Fear of future relationships that may go bad. Fear of the unknown as I was tested for cancer and fear while I waited for the test results. Fear of not knowing what the future holds for the boys and me. Fear of the present moment and of the strange way my body was reacting to stress. Fear of the low grade fever that would come and go. Fear of how weak I was feeling. Fear of how this was going to affect the boys.
Then it donned on me that all this negative self-talk was going to drag me slowly and surely to death and then the fear disappeared and I was left with a calm feeling of knowing that all would be okay, that everything was alright. Here it was, a feeling, a beautiful, calm feeling that the road ahead was uncertain but that somehow it was all going to be okay. I surrendered to it and from that moment on I moved myself up the emotional scale one step at a time. What did I have in my life to focus on that was good? That was right? First and the most important was the boys. Second was the roof over our head. Third was my family and friends. I sat down and wrote about all the beauty in my life and of everything that was right about it. My deep fear launched a powerful rocket of desire to feel better. I had asked. Now it was my job to align and allow so that I could achieve what I had asked for.
Reflect - What fear do you want to acknowledge?
September - GRIEF
Here I am at grief. I am grieving the loss of my old life and all that was familiar to me. I feel a grieving that is deep within my soul. Now I take a step up to see the rightness in this situation and from there I see that within each of us is a gorgeous flower garden called the soul. As we grow and learn the garden grows. As we grow and learn with others our collective garden grows too into a captivating and whole garden.
Journal entry (2nd) - I'm looking for the rightness in the day to day things and I'm finding it everywhere. It is the first day of school for my charming boys. Grade three for Zach and grade nine for Jaden. It's going to be a great year. I spent some time on Facebook this morning reading inspirational quotes, messages and posts. There are so many positive, sharing, caring people out there. The positive vibes I received this morning are bringing me out of fear and back into life. My friend, Gabriel, put the boys and me on a prayer list so people literally around the world are praying for us. Everyone needs a team to achieve great things. I can't do this on my own. Thank you Gabriel for your kindness and caring.
Notes to self ... I need lemon, cinnamon and honey and a good positive attitude. I need inner strength/love and a belief in myself. This will lead me to growth, beauty and freedom. I will build an exquisite alter with my pile of rocks. I will plant grass and flowers and put a flag on top (maybe a friendship flag). The beauty will flourish, grow and change and butterflies and bugs will come to signify freedom. The soul is like a flower garden and right now I am in the center and there are flower gardens growing all around me. I am protected and loved and one day I will help plant seeds in the next alter. Oh, and a fountain. Water is very soothing for me! I surround myself with beauty and everything that feels good. Accept and then keep moving forward. By letting go of inner resistance, I find that things change for the better which allows me to see the rightness of all things. Optimism got me through the divorce. This can be done too. Exercise. Drink lots of water. Soul journal. Live – Love – Laugh – Let Go. Feel Good – Give Thanks – Trust. Be aware. Look - Listen - Learn –Lead. Just Breath. I love my Boys. I will do this for you. I will do this for us!
How am I doing? GREAT! Thanks for asking. Yes, I'm in the flow again. I will do whatever it takes to FEEL GOOD NOW. Was this a curve ball? Nope, this is a pile of rocks and I will build a beautiful fountain. I love me and I'm perfect exactly where I am. It's time for some lemon and honey and a ride on my exercise bike. I'm in a place of Love & Trust. The boys are off to school and I'm going grocery shopping soon. As I dropped the boys off at the bus I ran into Jeff, who was outside doing bus supervision. He gave me a hug and reminded me that attitude is everything and to keep it positive. Thanks Jeff! I interpret this situation to be one of great growth and growth is good. It is essential to life. I will be keeping busy today. I have yard work, finances, housework and I'm going out to the farm. A busy body doesn't worry.
Now a tired body needs to read Fighting Cancer by Contreras/ Kennedy. Every book is a journey and masterpiece unto itself and all who get something from it. From this book I took away that some good foods are fruits/veggies, whole grains, All bran cereal, garlic, grapes, alfalfa, broccoli, berries, carrots, soy, nuts, artichokes, tomatoes, fruit juices, oranges, beans (zinc), oysters, zinc fortified cereals, fatty acids, cocoa, green tea. After reading that, I'm now hungry. This journey has put me completely in the moment. I guess this is part of the learning experience. I also took from the book that I should focus on what makes me happy. Things like exercise, sing, believe, pray (thank you for my healing), laugh and keep stress down. YES! Reduce stress. That is the big one for me! That is my cause. The next book I am going to read is called, Staying Alive by Brenda Hunter. It looks like it deals a lot with healing body, mind and soul. Thank you to Diane for lending the book to me.
When I'm stronger I'm going to get a tattoo and it will represent: Love + Trust which leads to Growth, Beauty and Freedom. There will be a red heart, a pink, thorn less rose and a butterfly.
Journal entry (4th) - I...
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