Acceptance of Others

Dear God,

Guide me in Your will; help me to learn from those I work with. Allow me the boundaries necessary to be safe and loved.

Fill my heart with Your acceptance in my daily living.

Let me let them be. Let me remember I am not You. I can only change myself.

Show me the patterns of pain by coworkers; let me learn this final lesson, so my wounds in and around my heart and soul heal.

My character defects only hurt my relationship with You. Without You, I am lost. Give me the strength and courage I need to walk quietly on this journey.

Help me change my thoughts, and actions, and reactions.

Use me as You will—as a messenger of the fellowship—and have Your powers teach me to lovingly accept the people I help through You.

The gifts I have are all of Your making.

God, I am sorry that at times I live in fear at work. I know when I can feel You in me and with me, I cannot feel fear, only Your love.

I give to You all at work this minute, every day, that You will allow them to be a part of my life each day if it is Your will.

I can and will accept that and maintain some healthiness for myself.

All or Nothing

Dear God,

My prayer is for the inclination to do Your will. I struggle with why I choose to do my will and once again have the negative emotions of guilt, shame, and remorse.

I have experienced the love of those who love me, and it is such a gift and blessing. Why won't I allow myself to be happy, joyous, and free? It is the total insanity of not loving myself. What am I doing to my body, Your temple?

It is all or nothing for me. I've lost my balance. I want my obsessions and compulsions to again be removed, as You did many years ago with my alcoholism. I pray that I will become willing to do the footwork.

Why am I still emotionally unequipped to live life? What is it going to take? I am tired of this continuous losing battle.

Surrender. Thank You, God, for so clearly giving me the answer.

Remove from my mind what is blocking me from You. Take away my fears and insecurities. Fill me with Your abounding love, and comfort me to forgive myself for all my issues I cling to.

Free me from my own bondage in my head, the past, the anger, the resentments, and the disappointments in myself and how I have displeased You.

My heart bonds with You. You have blessed me and given me gifts, knowledge, and talent to help others.

Demonstrate to me how to do the same for me. Help me to clear away my hurtful thoughts and actions that block You.

Fill my soul with the inner peace I so desire. I want to be a better person for You and myself.

Give me the insight to know when to hold my tongue. Open my eyes to the magnificence around me. Let me feel Your strength and guidance and hear Your voice.

My issues that prevent me from loving myself I give to You at this moment. I trust that You will heal me, heart, mind, body, and soul.

Grant me the courage and strength to let go and let You manage what holds me back.

I am not a failure. With Your love and guidance, I will take the steps of my recovery program to be a whole person. I am eager to do the footwork and to give myself to thee.

Another Way

The ending is near.

The war will soon be over.

Wounded hearts will embark on the journey of healing.

Casualties are the families caught in the crossfire,

Innocent children too young to understand the losses.

Can all start anew?

Is there enough love for forgiveness?

Will we let go?

The battle was lengthy,

Attacks from both sides.

Is there ever a winner?

Survival, at times, can be an end, not a new beginning.

Will peace and love reenter the wounded?

Will judgment cease?

Will we let go of the resentments?

Will our wounds heal as we continue to cling to the pain?

It didn't have to be this way.

Balance

My inner child is happy, content, and proud of her adult self.

The little me is full of joy and life; the feelings of abandonment and rejection have dissipated. What a relief!

All these years, the little girl in me has struggled to grow up, to be an adult, a whole person.

The adult in me feels like an adult, confident, loved, accepted, and real.

The child in me is full of wonder and awe, which her adult self creates, believes, sees, hears, and listens to today with no hidden fears.

My adult isolation has ceased for a while.

A divine connection with the adult loudly declares my love for others, my desire to be a part of, and a willingness to be. The frightened child peeks out in the full light and graciously smiles in her heart and soul, knowing this could and would be attained.

The adult in me lovingly embraces her inner child, comforts her, and nurtures her, transferring their active roles. They are coming to a place of unification, and their one heart and soul will rejoice when that occurs.

Will all days be as today? Neither of them are worried; they both accept the miracle of this day and take nothing for granted.

The adult feels motherly; she is aware her inner child has been...