What was it like to grow up on the fringes of our modern society? Life in the Fringes presents a collection of short stories and poetry that marks the transition from the innocence of childhood to the understanding of adult life. It examines the situations a child experiences as life takes its twists and turns. Author David de Tremaudan uses autobiographical storytelling that combines old oral traditions with a personal, modern perspective. Each short story offers tale of de Tremaudan's life, described from his unique perspective. It explores the personal view of a child maturing towards adulthood and his growing awareness of the values, morals, and beliefs that frame his life. Evil We look for evil apart from man Someone to personify But, the true face of evil With humankind does lie Evil is not an entity That to Satan gives a face But the truth is in the lot of us The total human race We travel the world to seek our fates For our selves and truth we search And in our search we see the ways That evil will besmirch When Rome took the world renown And its legions where conquering all Ask a Roman citizen then If it was wrong to conquer Gaul

Life In The Fringes

By David de Tremaudan

Trafford Publishing

Copyright © 2011 David de Tremaudan
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4269-6021-5

Contents

Introduction......................................11. Memories.......................................52. The Fringes....................................93. Life In The Fringes............................174. More Fringe Life...............................255. Chop-Chop......................................296. Fringe Development.............................397. Right Of Passage...............................498. Growth In The Fringes..........................599. The Fringes To An Outsider.....................6510. Test By Fire..................................7711. Night.........................................9312. The Rider.....................................9513. Horse.........................................9814. The story of Dog..............................10015. Evil..........................................10416. The Specter: Death............................10717. The Drum......................................10918. Life's Path...................................11119. Life's Storm..................................11220. Waves And Time................................11521. Did you ever wonder...........................11722. Lefty.........................................11923. A Tale of Nevermore...........................124

Chapter One

Memories

The best way to begin this thing is to go back to my earliest memory of note. There are other memories, but not as cohesive and certainly not so significant as this. I have put this one off as a part of my life that others may find as unbelievable and I do want this to be a believable work of nonfiction. At the time there was no real way to measure what my life was, as I had no real yardstick with which to scale it. What I did know was that I had rheumatic fever, I was in a hospital, my roommate was a small boy with horrible burns on his legs, and when I stood at the end of my bed, my chin would come to the top of the end board. I could look out the window at that point and see the dairy down below. I would watch every morning as the white horses were hooked to the wagons and then they would leave every morning on their appointment with whatever destiny that awaited them. I could not fathom too much more than this, because I wasn't tall enough to see more from my window. It 1954 and was I was only 18 months old.

It's kind of hard to say just when it was that I started to remember, but the closest that I can equate it too is waking up and being awake ever since. All of the other memories that come before that, although clear, seem more like lucid dreams. Visiting my grandparents place, playing with my older cousins and brothers, watching my Grandfather working around the barn doing various chores that seemed needing to be done and most of this from my mothers' knee with the surreal affectation of a dream. The morning I woke up in that hospital, there were no more dreams of that nature and I've been cognizant of my surroundings since. At that time I can honestly say that the world around me, which was very small, fascinated me and held my fascination to this day. Naturally, it never remained very small, my little world turned into an ever-expanding universe, and that was just fine by me. When I look back on this time and my fascination with life and its works, a quote of a famous writer and philosopher comes to mind, "Man, armed with his senses sets out to explore the universe and calls the adventure science". I don't know if what I did could be construed as empirical study, but it certainly has been an adventure. But before I digress into witless semantics and ramblings, back to what the story was about.

The last of the milk wagons had just pulled out toward whatever appointments they were to meet and I knew that the lady in white would be back with a trolley loaded with little cups containing all kinds of coloured and odd shaped things. They mostly tasted bad if you tried to chew them. You would take them one by one, pop them into your mouth, and wash them down with a bit of juice. The woman in the white dress, the nurse I guess, would babble at you saying things in baby talk that did little more than embarrass me for her. She would make the most ridiculous faces that one could imagine while she was trying to get you to swallow whatever it was that she was trying to get you to swallow. In retrospect, this was always what I appreciated most about my folks. They always treated you as if you owned a brain. This was not something that most other adults would give kids credit for, so most speak to kids as though their mentally challenged adults. Someone should have told the nurse that we were born with brains, but I guess that wasn't part of her training.

The horses were gone for the day, the nurses had made their rounds, and there was nothing left to do but wait. During these times I would retreat into a world that seemed to have been created for me where I could go to a place that resembled my Grandfathers home. It was a warm place of sunlight and farm animals with sights sounds and smells to go with them. It was a wonderful place and was far away from the nurses, cribs, and sterile smells that went with this place. I went there as often as time would allow. When someone spoke to me, I would come to the world without so much as blink. While I was there, this surrealistic world blend itself into the sterile surroundings with a smooth folding that would go seemingly unnoticed by the rest of the world. The one time that it did not come was like one of the days that were left back in memory. I was put in a diaper. This was not a happy time for me. I never in my memories ever wore a diaper. I did not care for these ladies in white. They were always so much superior to you. I didn't feel like a patient, I felt like an inmate. This last characterization I would not afford an equivalent to until I started working in a correctional facility in 1987. It wasn't as sterile, it wasn't as lonely, but it was segregated. The difference was that I had my window to the dairy and my world built on the counterpane of my bed. I remember first reading the poem, "The Land of Counterpane", and felt it like it was a window to the magic world that attended me in that hospital.

But there were times ... times that I could not go to that world of warmth and comfort. The boy in the next bed would receive treatment for his burns. This little boy would lie quietly and wait for it to begin, so would I. The ladies in white and a man in a long white coat would come into the room and position themselves around this boys bed. There would be a trolley like the one with the containers of the many coloured awful tasting objects would come on. This was not laden with foul tasting things. Instead it bore implements that would make the boy scream during their application. I would never say anything about this, but I grew to have a natural distrust of anyone dressed in white. After it was over and everyone had withdrawn, the young boy would climb down from his bed and come to play with the toys in my crib. I would let no one touch these things or disturb my land of counterpane except him. I could not even limit what he would play with. Anything that he wanted was just fine with me. I have never seen this boy since, but I remember him as though it was yesterday. That was over 50 years ago. To this day I wonder if it was his trial that triggered and held my cognizance. I remember the dark hair, the deep eyes that seemed to hold the...