True Identity starts with a love story that follows with poetry, stories and the journey of people of color with biblical/relevant references. The story begins with the end of one journey that leads to a spiritual awakening in the next one. Author India Wilson believes that it is sociologically important for the so-called Black race to know their true identity because it affects their moral fiber, social mobility, and total well-being. This knowledge can strengthen every aspect of their moral fiber, greatly improving their well-being and the ways in which they interact with the world. It is India's desire to share her true stories and poetic journey of racial identity as it connects with her passion to make a positive difference in the lives of others. True Identity by India Wilson is a great book for all to read. All praises to the "Most High!"

TRUE IDENTITY

A Spiritual Poetry InheritanceBy INDIA C. WILSON

iUniverse, Inc.

Copyright © 2012 India C. Wilson
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4759-4811-0

Contents

Chapter 1 – Reflections...........................................1Chapter 2 – Freeing our Heritage..................................11Chapter 3 – Color and Hair Episode................................41Chapter 4 – Spiritual Connections.................................57Chapter 5 – Idol Worship and Transliterations.....................109Chapter 6 – The Linguistic Journey................................119Chapter 7 – Free Will.............................................147Chapter 8 – My Gift...............................................161Definitions.............................................................169Bibliography............................................................171

Chapter One

REFLECTIONS

AMERICAN SAGA:

It's the 4th day of the week and I have a big date with my boyfriend Marcus at San-Delo Italian Restaurant. I truly care about him a lot. He is exactly what I want. I mean the brother is fine yawl and ... he has a nice job!

Uh Oh!

I really hope he is not mad at me for being 15 minutes late.

Look, I know what you're probably thinking right now;

Girl, do not be late for your big date! Why are you making that man wait? Don't worry. I'm not at home or stuck in traffic. I'm in San- Delo's restroom checking myself out.

Hey, a girl has got to make sure she looks good.

Plus, he told me there's no rush because tonight is a special night for the both of us. It's our 5 year anniversary of being together. I hope he pop the big question that I've been waiting years for.

I'm standing in front of the bathroom mirror staring at my reflection.

What do I see? I see: a thirty-four year old woman ready for true Love. I'm so excited! I can't believe the wait is finally over. I walk out of the ladies room and take a deep breath.

(I Breath)

Here goes nothing!

As I walk straight to the dining table, I see my prince charming standing up waiting for his princess.

He then says to me ...

Marcus - Wow! You look beautiful!

India - Thank you sweetie. Hee, hee (laughter).

Marcus - You're so silly. Hold up baby girl, wait right here. Do not move a muscle!

(He walks towards my chair and pulls it open)

India - Oh wow! Thank you for pulling my chair out for me. "You are way to kind" ha, ha, ha, ha (laughter).

Marcus - No problem! What's so funny? (He scratches his head)

India - I don't know. It's just that you're acting extra sweet tonight.

Marcus - Well tonight is a special night for me. I mean for us!

India – Aw isn't that sweet. You definitely went the extra mile this time. I mean San-Delo's? Marcus you didn't have to do this! Only rich people come to this place.

Marcus - And that's what I'm going to be pretty soon. (he smiles)

India – Honey you know none of that stuff matters to me. I love you for you.

Marcus – Aw yes I know ... Look India I have something I want to talk to you about.

{Marcus then gets down on his knees and holds my hand}

India – Oh wow!

Yes Marcus, I WILL MARRY YOU!

(PEOPLE BEGIN TO CHEER)

Marcus –Whoa! India, why are you saying that? I hope you're not thinking that's why we are here.

{I laugh it off}

India - Well yes- It has been 5 years Marcus, but it's ok. I'll wait for you as long as it takes. Anyway, don't you think it's time for our relationship to get an upgrade?

{Marcus starts shaking his head}

Marcus – India, why are you being so selfish?

India – Honey I'm not and why are you talking to me like that? Is there something wrong?

Marcus – Yes there is! I don't want to marry you!

{Huh}

Marcus - In fact, I never planned on it. India, I brought you here to tell you that I am not happy!

India – How is that so? I thought everything was going wonderful. Wait a minute! If you're not proposing to me, why are you holding my hand on the floor?

Marcus – India, can't you see I'm trying to end this relationship as gentle as possible. I'm not ready to be in a relationship. I have too many goals that I must accomplish and I don't want anyone standing in the way of them.

{I take a second to breathe}

India – Marcus, I can't believe you just said that. Are you trying to tell me I'm standing in the way of your happiness?

Marcus – Look ... that is not what I'm saying, so why are you making this harder on yourself?

{I take a deep breath}

Marcus – India, I also brought you here to tell you I'm moving. Tomorrow is my last chance to move to Paris! I can finally have a fresh start. I was offered a really great job over there.

Marcus – Aw come on, don't cry! Can't you see; this works out for the best. You finally get the time you need to write your book without me taking all of your attention. You know I was never into that "power to the people" stuff.

India – Power to the people! Really Marcus, is that how you see me? And please don't mention my book; it has nothing to do with this and you know it.

Marcus – India, Why are your causing a scene? India – WHY? Think about it! After 5 years of catering to you and loving you, you're finally going to bring me to a nice restaurant to tell me you're not happy.

{I grab a bottle of champagne and shake it real hard}

Marcus - Now honey, don't do that!

India - What Marcus, embarrass you? How are you going to just up and leave me like this? I thought you loved me.

Marcus – Look, it's too late for all of that. My stuff will be gone by noon tomorrow.

India - Noon? Marcus you know I can't afford that house alone.

Marcus – Look, don't worry about that. I got you covered for a few months.

{I begin to have a reality check}

India - So you mean I was living in sin, going against my spirituality and thinking you were going to marry me? Instead you use me and walk away. Wow, you are a classic jerk!

{I then pop the bottle of champagne and shower his face with it}

Marcus - Yeah that's real classy India, real classy!

{Marcus then takes a napkin and wipes the champagne off his face}

Marcus – India, I'm sorry it had to end this way.

THE WAIT

Together for such a long time
You think we would be in a serene state of mind
United – Together as one
Happiness and bliss under the sun

* * *

Thinking that a change is going to come
Thinking I would officially be his wife
The pain is as if cut with a knife
Being used galore and making me wait
Thinking a life with him was my fate

* * *

Equally yoked, No need to beg for a hand in marriage
Year after year, waiting for the union
Not knowing you are his illusion

* * *

Putting him on a pedestal
Making him our everything
Forgetting that our Heavenly Father only holds that role
Forgetting ourselves and almost losing our soul

* * *

Trying to please another while waiting for them to shine
No Love, blinded by lust and desire, not safe
Deception, betrayal, lust and lies
We all have alibis
Maybe the thought...